Like releasing a coiled spring, a rabbit hops about in a seemingly distracted fashion. First, it is sniffing and munching on flowers and suddenly it is leaping and bounding across a lawn or meadow as if something captured its attention or frightened it, or just on a whim decided to aimlessly run about. Spring is like that; it comes in ‘fits and starts.’ Here in the Rockies, the weather will be 75 or 80 degrees one day and then plummet to 32 with snow. Waking up in the morning, one never knows what the weather or the energy of the day will bring.
Have you noticed your mind and energy much like a rabbit, flitting about without sustained focused attention to one activity and being pulled in many directions? There is an anxious buzzing anticipation in the energy of spring. In one moment, you may be engaged with incredible drive and motivation. "Let's get on with it." Then suddenly you are feeling overwhelmed with the onslaught of what is in front of you. “Will I get it all done?” “When will this craziness stop?” “Can I handle all of this change?” “I can't believe all of these emotional and physical issues are coming up again; I don't have time for that."
Balance is Found by Not Resisting My Experience
Along with the task of clearing out over twenty years of accumulated possessions and not knowing where I will live, I have wondered if my long list of what I think I need to do will ever be completed or even needs to be completed. As a download of ideas, work projects, and responsibilities converge with astounding velocity, there is simultaneously a force compelling me to complete everything at once. My priorities are shifting and what is non-essential must drop away. I find a different type of balance. Attempting to do everything at once or even allocating some time for each task every day only increases the sense of overwhelm and lack of completion. No, I must attune with the energy of the day and allow what is present to be fully experienced without demanding it to alter. I must have patience knowing that everything will be completed as needed.
Spring is a time of transition. The mind and body can become so full of intense energy, that you simply stop functioning and cannot process all that is coming at you. Some days you may be weighted down with no energy because of the enormity of what is ahead or confused about the next step or where to focus your attention. You may be drawn back into looking at behaviors, beliefs, and aspects of yourself or relationships that do not fit with what your soul beckons you towards or perhaps requires resolution. You may experience intense emotions arising. For some, the heightened energy induces busyness, anxiousness, uncertainty and insomnia. In the very next moment or day, you may be filled with a sense of liveliness, excitement, a positive outlook and forward motion. The fluctuating energy provides the evidence that change is certain. In fully being with whatever experience life brings, you find an inner calm and stability that carries and holds you.
"Our resiliency and flexibility are enhanced with the seesawing energy."
Spring calls us out of the darkness of introspection into the wider pull of connection and relationship with people while re-inventing our life into what ignites our growth. There is actually great purpose in the pulsing energy of spring. We move back and forth from the dimension of stillness of winter to the dynamic advance of spring. We bounce between these energies as a way to shed the old, resolve the past and put our toe into the waters of the new. Springs are flexible and elastic and these qualities are required to embody the transition into our expanded being. Our resiliency and flexibility are enhanced with the seesawing energy. The oscillation pushes us out of fixed habits and allows us to get “unstuck” from outdated patterns and relationships. It helps us to complete what was unfinished and to gain a fresh perspective. It helps us feel comfortable with change.
Making Room for the New You
So, when you are pulled back into an old pattern or relationship, realize that it is a healthy and natural rhythm allowing you to complete what was unresolved. It does not mean that you did it wrong before or that you will always have to revisit the old feelings or patterns. It does not mean that you will remain in any experience. Growth is the process of embracing and integrating. Old wounds and traumas resolve when we are ready to embrace them from a compassionate and expanded perspective. It is a spring cleaning for your soul.
You are constantly growing and changing and consequently your experience of life and of yourself changes. What served you in the past may no longer fit. When you understand the nature of spring’s “push-pull” energy, you can find the rhythm and dance with it. You can trust the transformative process. You can begin to see the purpose and stability within change. This is a time when we are being offered the opportunity to embrace whatever experience we are having with fresh new eyes, which makes room for the vibrancy of the new life we are creating.